Monday, October 22, 2012

On My Own

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Originally posted on my Facebook account on Sept. 25, 2012



Previously:
Farewell, My Concubine



My phone beeped earlier while I was at work.  How are you K? Chris texted. Wow, I told myself. This was a surprise. I rarely hear from him these days.

"Busy, tired from the weekend, back at work, flying to Singapore on Thursday until Sunday for work," I said, quickly summarizing the events. "Ikaw? Kamusta ka? It's been ages."

"I'm doing great. :) Nangamusta lang. I miss you."

"Okay .. napaka vague ng great," I said. "Hahaha. Ikaw talaga. Walang balita?"

Chris then rambled on, telling me about his new work, his training. And then he said "I'm so in love with my boyfriend. He's the best thing that happened to me."

And just like that, suddenly, I remembered what it was like to be with someone, to be with someone you love. I smiled at the memory, and felt a little wistful.

"I'm really happy for you," I said. And I am.



I am happy with my life; yet I know what I feel is nothing compared to the joy Chris is feeling. They say nothing is as sweet as the nectar of love. Not all the accolades at work, nor the adoration of men (or women), nor the wealth of a thousand empires. Wasn't it the bard himself who spoke of the ecstasy of love?

So tonight I sleep with a little smile on my face, thinking of Chris and his newfound love.

And I think about the best thing that happened to me. I know it sounds strange, but it's a small piece of truth I picked up along the way.

It's the thought that no matter what happens, I'll always have myself. They say it takes a certain kind of wisdom to be happy on your own. I think I'm getting there.
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13 comments:

rudeboy said...

"And just like that, suddenly, I remembered what it was like to be with someone, to be with someone you love. "

And these were the very thoughts tormenting me as I wept at 3:30 in the morning last night.

They say 'tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.

But I say 'tis even better not to lose at all.

If only we could make it so.

Yas Jayson said...

(pats back)

♔ıǝɹɯɐı♔ said...

They say that there's no greater joy than in being happy alone. Hope you find happiness K :D You deserve it.

Mugen said...

The joys of others finding love somehow gives us hope that we too... :)

Patrick Poculan said...

I totally agree with that Kane.

And, it's best to love someone when you have too much for yourself; the best time to love.

Mac Callister said...

i know how u feel! madalas din ako makaramdam ng ganyan.

u cannot help but wish na "sana ako din..."

hehe.

Darc Diarist said...

that crossed my mind last night. myself's all i got...

Guyrony said...

Because in the end it's all just about loving oneself.

john stan said...

Ahhh, love. I guess not all of us are lucky.

Momel said...

Happy on your own. It would be nice to chew on that, at times. Maybe I will.

Shit, this "not blogging" phase is taking it's toll on my, what, spunk. I sound as cheesy and as, what's this word, cryptic as most of them drama queens you have in your comments.

Muahness from Pasig Cirehhh!

Brian said...

it takes a certain courage and self-love to be THAT happy for someone, so for that alone, you have my respect. :)

citybuoy said...

Somehwere out there, a boring house-band is reading this thinking "why can't I be more like Kane?"

JM said...

"It's the thought that no matter what happens, I'll always have myself. They say it takes a certain kind of wisdom to be happy on your own. I think I'm getting there."

very nice..