Tuesday, December 01, 2009

So Clever, My Friend

"Now I've justified this to myself in all sorts of ways. It wasn't a big deal, just a minor betrayal. Or we'd outgrown each other, you know, that sort of thing. But let's face it, I ripped them off - my so called mates."
---Trainspotting (1996)

K: Hay V. I can't believe it. Talagang we're really both single noh? For the very first time, you are my competition. Hahahaha.

V: Oo nga honey eh. It's the first time we're both single together.

K: Talagang keep your friends close, and your BFFs closer. Hahaha.

V: And your prospects the closest! Hahahaha.

It was a Thursday night and V and I were drinking with some friends including a guy I kind of liked. Let's call the guy Euro Punk. Euro Punk and I have been spending a lot of time recently although we are not dating. He doesn't even know I like him. We have known each other for years but it is only now that we are starting to be friends.

V knows I liked Euro Punk. I tell him our exchange of text messages, how Euro Punk said he wants to make me smile. How that makes me smile. How happy seeing him makes me.

I noticed Euro Punk and V were flirting with each other that night. No biggie, I told myself. I know Euro Punk likes to flirt and I trusted V because he knows I like the guy.

We ended at 6 a.m. It was one of those unforgettable fun nights where the talk and laughter never seemed to end. The next day, I couldn't contact V the whole day. I was a little worried about him, worried if he got home safely.

All of us had made plans to meet Friday night at the Fort. V had told us he couldn't make it because he had another party to go to with his friends from the gym.

I was texting with EA about our plans for the night when suddenly my friend JKN texted me.

JKN: Ayan may batt na ako.

K: Saan ka na?

JKN: Dito Timog.

K: Sa Tony's ka? Tara, sama ka sa fort now.

JKN: May work ako bukas. Andito si V ah, kasama niya si Euro Punk.

I was shocked. V and Euro Punk were together? And V didn't tell me? I couldn't believe it. I learned later on V and Euro Punk also spent some time together last Saturday night.

He's so clever, my V. I didn't see the bullet coming. He has truly outdone himself. Who would have though that he, of all people, can do this to me?

I saw Euro Punk Sunday night and I was glad we weren't awkward. He just came from meeting a guy and was about to meet another one.

K: Another one? Todo ka ha.

Euro Punk: I just want to keep my options open.

K: Well, apparently, you're very wide open.

Euro Punk: Nakakainis ka!

We both laughed. I touched his tummy and told him he should go on a diet.

Euro Punk: Pagnagka abs ako, talagang ipapakita ko sa iyo.

K: Never ka naman magkaka abs eh.

Euro Punk: Ganoon? Tingin mo hindi ko kaya?

K: It's not that. Di mo naman kailangan eh.

He smiled, in that charming way of his. When I asked him how his weekend was, strangely, there wasn't a mention of V.

I am still reeling from the shock of my best friend's betrayal. I am so emotionally drained right now I can't even muster up a decent anger. I can't even be properly angry at V. I barely got out alive from my last harrowing emotional war, I don't have the energy for another drama.

I'm just so tired. All I wanted was for some quiet time before the next seasons opens. Apparently, I am not being given any rest. V and I have been friends for six years now. We have cared for and loved each other through our heartaches and pains, through our joys and sorrows.

Emotions are complex. Most of them are made up of separate emotions bundled up together. I feel angry, sad that I may lose our friendship, and disappointed at V's lack of integrity.

Betrayal plays a big role in my life lessons for this year. My ex-boyfriend betrayed me and now my BFF has also betrayed me. As I think of M and V, I ask myself how well do we really know the people we love? Who can we really trust?

V and I have not spoken for five days now. He hasn't contacted me and I haven't contacted him. What is there to say? Do I accuse him of flirting with a guy I like? Are we really going to do this let's-fight-over-a-guy scene?

There are many things I want to say and ask but the question I really want to ask him is: why?

"Thou dost betray me with a kiss."


thecurioscat said...


john stanley said...

dami dyan, k. it's not worth thinking about.

"P" said...

Another betrayal huh... Poor K. Well, you might be in a "silent war" right now with V. But try to fix this. He's your BFF. At any cost, you deserve an explanation from V about this. On the other hand, that Euro Bitch is not worth it K. Let him keep his options open (more like widening his bitchy ass). Stop entertaining this Euro Bitch, such a waste of time.

You just got back from the grave... this is nothing compared to the hell-ish experience with your ex. This too shall pass...

XOXO - "P"

Raf Feliciano said...


nobody owns anybody. so go for the gold. and i know, bff's wll understand.

will you?

Anonymous said...

I think if he values ur friendship, he'll come clean.. when he does, then the friendship is worth saving..

then again you've been through it all, you'll survive this one :D

Anonymous said...

kane, my bff and i once fought over a guy (an ugly one at that). from then on, we agreed that once we've spotted a guy we liked and we announced it, that guy is already off limits. hahaha

i think it's not worth it fighting over a guy. think about what matters to you more and take it from there.

rudeboy said...

All is fair in love and war, Kane.

E said...

Sana mag-kaayos before Jan 2010...Don't forget, your show is going to Macau and HongKong at for the 1st time kasama ako LOL! totodo tyo dapat doon at sana walang friction.

Teban said...

Oh Kane, Hugs.

You are entitled to feel betrayed. Oh, V!

But Kane, let me remind you to examine your goals on how you want to relate to V and to EuroPunk(now and in the future). Your goals will change how you will feel towards V, towards EuroPunk and how you will interact with them.

Oh god, let me hug you tightly dear. I know you dont deserve this emotional experiences and betrayals.

Hang on there...

Galen said...

It sucks when friends trade you for boylets.

I guess it all boils down to values and upbringing of a person.

Jinjiruks said...


hirap ng ganyang pakiramdam. ako nde ko alam gagawin ko pag ginawa sa akin ng friend ko yan. baka kung ano ang magawa ko sa kanya.

citybuoy said...

i was in a similar situation farily recently although my euro punk was not a prospect but a very fresh ex. it's easy to argue that friendships should not be broken over a guy but what people fail to notice is it's not the guy we're talking about here. there are fifty million guys out there. we know that. it's the principle behind it. it's the betrayal that stings.

i hope you get over this soon. lapit na ang season of forgiveness. hehe

in case you're wondering, i EOF'd (end of friendship) my friend. it inspired a hate post pa nga eh.

E said...

hey hey hey! lets not be so quick to judge V. Do not judge the book by it's plastic cover-especially if your not a judge.

V has his reasons and since they have been BFFs for years he deserves a SECOND chance.

Anonymous said...

sometimes, life can get very unfair...

Anonymous said...

Ang kay Ate at kay Ate na. Binakudan na eh. They weren't really seeing each other "yet" kasi nga K was still anticipating for the right time. In this case, Delicadeza na lang. "GO FOR THE GOLD?!" That is so nutty! V and K were bff's. Would you share your toothbrush with someone? I guess ang unfair is "multiple bakudan",K. Wala dapat ganunan. Isa-isa lang. If V really really likes the guy, he could've talked to K and set a time frame. I think 2 weeks is enough. If nothing happens, may the best one wins! Be polite. Rule number1 "wag pag-awayan ang lalake."

wanderingcommuter said...

ang BF napapalitan, ang BFF hindi... sana magkaayos na kayo.

Manech said...

I say talk to him, clarify things. I learned it the hard way: miscommunication (or the lack of communication) aggravates things. If he's truly a friend, you definitely can settle things.

The best of luck.