I was falling asleep when my phone rang.
"Hey Nic, what's up?" I said in a drowsy voice.
I couldn't hear anything until I suddenly realized he was crying.
"O, are you okay? What happened?"
"Jack and I broke up."
He was sobbing.
"I didn't know who else I can call. Patulog ka na ba? (Are you about to sleep?)" Nic said. "Gusto ko lang umiyak. (I just want to cry.)"
"No… it's okay Nic. Sige lang. Iiyak mo lang. (Just cry it out.)"
Nic and Jack have been together for four years. They shared many happy memories, like most couples do. They were having problems but the one that broke the last thread was when Nic found out Jack was in love… with someone else.
"Wala na akong magawa Kane eh. (I can't do anything Kane.) He's in love with someone else."
When relationships fail, we often look for someone or something to blame. We often say, that bitch stole my boyfriend and we insist our lovers still love us.
But I've learned that sometimes, the simplest reason is the one that's the most difficult to accept.
He fell out of love with me. There… you have it.
Nic and Jack had planned to go on a trip to Kuala Lumpur and Singapore before they broke up. They still decided to go… as friends now.
"How was it?" I asked Nic last night at the gym.
"It was okay, fun fun. I guess travelling has always been our thing, you know."
"Ahhh… you're right. Your 'couple' thing," I replied and smiled.
"I only got sad when we were about to go home from the airport," Nic said, "I guess I knew what that meant."
"During the trip, I could still pretend we were together. A part of me wished the vacation didn't have to end."
I looked at him and told him I understood… all too well, perhaps. There are certain bridges we don't want to cross. Sometimes the grass at the other side of the fence is not greener.
To lighten things up, I playfully punched him in his tummy.
"O, what's this?" I teased him.
"Asus. Hayaan mo na iyan. (Oh just let it be.)"
"Oh honey, you forget. You are no longer married. It matters now."
"Ayyy… PAK!" Nic said and we both laughed.
I was walking home and humming a tune when Nic texted.
"You were right. Being fat matters now that I'm single."
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