Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Someone Like Me

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They say past relationships can scar us, but some scars are so hidden it takes a while before it reveals itself.

"You know what honey, I realized something about myself," I said to V.

It was one of those days when V and I were talking about the men in our lives, or the lack thereof. How difficult it is to find someone who you like, who likes you back.

"I have noticed that recently, whenever a good looking guy with a well-built body would tell me he likes me, there is a part of me that is a little disbelieving. It's like, why me?"

"Really? But why?" V said.

"I was surprised too. But when I tried to understand where it was coming from, I realized it was all because of M," I replied.

"You know I have always been confident of myself. I know I'm not the best looking guy in the world or the smartest or the funniest but that's okay," I explained. "I get my fair share of men."

"But something changed within me after my breakup," I said slowly. "I guess it's because M cheated on me so many times. I was never enough for him, and if I wasn't enough for him, why would I be enough for anyone?"

I looked at V. He was looking at me, and in that moment, I knew he understood. He was there, he saw it all.

"And whenever someone as hot as M or F would come along, I guess a part of me thinks why would someone like him want someone like me?"







"Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
Someone like me"
---"Use Somebody", Kings of Leon

23 comments:

Mu[g]en said...

Even the best and the most beautiful among us still clings to our nightmarish past.

engel said...

you'll meet someone who'll make you forget what you went through with M.

You are all the good things people say you are. Those guys just didn't realize what they were letting go.

drew said...

Why should you be enough for anyone? Or rather, why should you be anything for anyone but yourself? And if they put you on a scale why should you let them?

narnian said...

hugs. :)

Alterjon said...

yeah.
if i couldn't even grow a sunflower, what more a garden of it?
but the language of the heart says otherwise -
that not all earth are the same, perhaps even strangely a dessert can grow one and yet only time can tell..

Nimmy said...

kapag nameet mo na si "right" person, all of those nega feelings will disappear. cheesy but oh so true :)

paci said...

no one can undo the bad memories. but there will be a person who, though he could not erase the bad memories and take away the scars, will be more than willing to accept you scars and all; moreover, to make good memories with you.

E said...

Hay nako K, an another season opens for us...Excited, scared and anxious but at the end of the day, we always have MECCA to cheer us up...

Guyrony said...

Should your fear of being incomplete hinder you in getting what you rightfully deserve in life?

wanderingcommuter said...

iba talaga ang nagagawa ng pag-ibig. at mukhang season ng pag-ibig ngayon! hahaha. sayang, na out of stock-an ako! lol

orallyours said...

The past is holding me,
Keeping life at bay,
I wander lost in yesterday,
Wanting to fly -
But scared to try.

soltero said...

maraming hot dyan ang may ginintuang puso din hehe..don't let 1 bad experience mar ur quest for love...mahahanap mo din yan :P

Ex Jason said...

i'm with mr drew on this one. there's no reason to think that someone like him is in any way better than someone like you.

Darc Diarist said...

i feel you. you be well. there's much for someone as good as you...

john stanley said...

love can really be such a bitch sometimes. it strikes us where we are most vulnerable.

but you will endure, kane.

Boying Opaw said...

sabi ng isang prof ko nung college, ang mga matatalino/intelektuwal daw ay yung mga tao na nagtatanong ng "why...?"

naisip ko, ang totoong matatalino/intelektuwal na tao ay yung alam kung kelan kailangang magtanong ng "why...?" at kelan hindi.

Boying Opaw said...

siguro, what I'm trying to say is minsan may mga bagay bagay na hindi na kelangan ng rason.

ang gulo ko. hahahahaha.

Yas Jayson said...

do not be afraid.

jace said...

This hit close to home. :)

Pipo said...

I can relate. For a moment, akala ko ako nagsulat neto.

Niel Steve said...

aaaaw, k.

♥N said...

Such a normal and typical human response to feeling unworthy after a failed relationship... but we should never base our worth on someone else. We are who we are, and we are never less or not enough. Maybe we were just too much for that person and they were incapable of holding all the love we had for them. We have to find someone who realizes our true worth.

Kiks said...

funny how one's tragic moment can turn us into phobic folks of lore.

you will soon find out though that the very thing you are scared of can be the same thing that empowers you.

and it just may be a different alphabet altogether (whatever this meant.)