They say past relationships can scar us, but some scars are so hidden it takes a while before it reveals itself.
"You know what honey, I realized something about myself," I said to V.
It was one of those days when V and I were talking about the men in our lives, or the lack thereof. How difficult it is to find someone who you like, who likes you back.
"I have noticed that recently, whenever a good looking guy with a well-built body would tell me he likes me, there is a part of me that is a little disbelieving. It's like, why me?"
"Really? But why?" V said.
"I was surprised too. But when I tried to understand where it was coming from, I realized it was all because of M," I replied.
"You know I have always been confident of myself. I know I'm not the best looking guy in the world or the smartest or the funniest but that's okay," I explained. "I get my fair share of men."
"But something changed within me after my breakup," I said slowly. "I guess it's because M cheated on me so many times. I was never enough for him, and if I wasn't enough for him, why would I be enough for anyone?"
I looked at V. He was looking at me, and in that moment, I knew he understood. He was there, he saw it all.
"And whenever someone as hot as M or F would come along, I guess a part of me thinks why would someone like him want someone like me?"
"Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
Someone like me"
---"Use Somebody", Kings of Leon